We've all had this happen to us at some point in our lives. I wanted to share this beautiful song to you all. It's awesome. The singer is James Blunt!

You're Beautiful

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you

~~**For Mr. B**~~

Wishing you a Safe and Merry Christmas

below is for you..

Cry
I have seen peace. I have seen pain,
Resting on the shoulders of your name.
Do you see the truth through all their lies?
Do you see the world through troubled eyes?
And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.

I have seen birth. I have seen death.
Lived to see a lover's final breath.
Do you see my guilt? Should I feel fright?
Is the fire of hesitation burning bright?
And if you want to talk about it once again,
On you I depend. I'll cry on your shoulder.
You're a friend.

You and I have been through many things.
I'll hold on to your heart.
I wouldn't cry for anything,
But don't go tearing your life apart.

I have seen fear. I have seen faith.
Seen the look of anger on your face.
And if you want to talk about what will be,
Come and sit with me, and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.
And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.

I soooooooo miss you "Mr. B." I'm sorry I stopped talking. My health got soooooo bad and I was hospitalized for 63 days. I just got back on my feet again. I tried to email and it's gone! Much to my surprise. Just in case you read this...I was curious as if you ever got over your "cold"???????? I guess I'll never know huh?

I hope your Mom is doing well....the Holiday's are closing in...

I'm going to try my best to blog on this thing. I've got so much to say right now.

Much Love

I’m constantly hearing "blog’s" are where people in this country run to tell the world their private lives. I’m amazed since, I’ve been so private all of my life. My mother made me this way I’m sure. I have been thinking to myself what if, just what if, I told someone what I was really, really, going through? What on earth would it accomplish?? Would I get to the last cord of my heart string’s? And there would be R-E-L-I-E-F?? Is this the new age ROLAID ? Could this be a quick cure for a stomach ulcer? Maybe they’re onto something...Maybe not?? I was reluctant but right now I don’t have a prayer and honestly, nothing to lose.

On November 14, 2005 just four days ago. I discovered my husband would have been 36 years old. I then counted the years in my head since he left this earth...Almost 5 in January. How my life has changed since he passed. It’s amazing how time flies’ when someone you love passing on...I've learned much about being a widow. I think when I die, someone will paste a little photo of me in a dictionary for sure under-WIDOW!

With that being said....I currently find myself for the very first time in my life! Living through a winter with no heat. I can’t afford it. It’s that simple. My life has gone downhill and fast. I can recall many holiday’s in my past when I would watch the local new’s and hear of people less fortunate than I, who had no heat. Then the death counts of people who would lose their lives because they tried to stay warm. Sad, I’d think to myself. Today, I find myself in this very situation and I wonder just how did I get myself here?

Amazing as it seems since someone attempted to murder me I’ve suffered financially, physically, and emotionally. I’ve kept quiet long enough I do believe. I feel like walking outside and telling the world! "There is a MURDERER out there!!!!!!!!!! And you’d be very surprised who it is.

It leads me back to my current dilemma. Do they (the person responsible for attempting to murder me) have heat? Are they warm tonight? Will they enjoy their last holiday with their family? I sure hope so. My family won’t have a holiday because honestly, we can even afford air in a bag...Let alone a holiday right now!

I'm frustrated right now and rather upset...So many thing's are going on and I'm locked down inside like Fort Knox.

It's going to take me some time to get this "PRIVATE STUFF" out.

I can't believe it's been so long since I actually made a post in my journal. I'm alive and well but taking it easy. Each day I'm trying to get stronger! I pray the upcoming year 2006 will bring me much strength and hope.

My favorite holiday is coming up! HALLOWEEN!

I'm so exicted! We're going to try and have a Halloween party and play DRESS! UP!

Taran get's to go Trick-A-Treating this year for the 1st time! This Halloween is going to be FUN!

god·dess
Pronunciation: 'gä-d&s also 'go-
Function: noun

1. A female being of supernatural powers or attributes, believed in and worshiped by a people.
2. often Goddess A female being believed to be the source of life and being and worshiped as the principal deity in various religions. Used with the.
3. An image of a female supernatural being; an idol.
4. Something, such as fame or wealth, that is worshiped or idealized.
5. A woman of great beauty or grace. 

Just a quick update on my health. I'm feeling ok???? I suppose. The pain is pretty rough and I'm laying it to my pain med's. I'm hoping I'll begin to feel better by this time next week. This has been the most painful thing I've ever endured. Please continue to keep me in your prayers. 

Meanwhile, I adopted a cutie from the dollhouse!

This is for Taran! isn't the dog the sweetest thing???

Taran's Puppy Dog

Great News! I'm alive all !!!! Wishing I could jump up and down... Doing the happy dance all over the WORLD!!

My brain surgery was performed on July 13, 2005 @ MUSC

Surgery went fine and then we had a sudden SERIOUS set back. I was passing cerebral fluid. I had a lumbar drain placed in my spine  immediately...

The pain of this  ordeal/surgery was horrific but little to the thought of never seeing my grandson ever again.

Then I suddenly think to myself....The months and months of hell I've endured as a result of this tumor to get to here, right here tonight, writing, in my home, at my little laptop, wiritng these words. As usual, doing what I adore to do.... back to the surgery update...The cerebral fluid began to slowly drain...

It was a scary ordeal I must say.... My daughter stood beside me all of the way.

 I prayed to God day and night asking for LIFE since this ordeal began!

Life is what I got......A M E N

I'm alive and well, back home, happy, and on a MISSION! ((Hugs to my friends))) (((hugs to my kid's))

Today is the last day of the rest of my life!

I'll turn this life around I've been living and drive myelf into the sunset of happiness and peace once again. Just me, myself, and I.

"Lord, I'm coming home."

Well I got the news today that my surgery is going to be performed on Wednesday, July 13, 2005...@ The Holling's Cancer Center, Charleston, SC.

 As you all know, I was diagnosed with a brain tumor back in May. I'm not looking forward to this complex surgery but, I don't have a choice It must be performed. I'm almost blind now because of it.

I would like to ask you all to continue to pray for me and my family. We have been through some very difficult and trying times in the past 4 years.Thanks in advance to you all for your warm wishes.

Let's hope I make it through this surgery! I'm running out of lives. Let's pray I make it back to make another POST!